I always thought that I would be the reason my mother would lose her hair. From my rebellious teenage years and my tendencies to be overdramatic; I thought I would be the cause for such a thing. But no- it wasn't me. It has finally started to happen. They said it would around this time- week 3 or so after the first chemo treatment. Still I think one is never really ready to understand how to prepare for losing their hair. Her hair was coming out and she was starting to see bald spots so rather than watch it fall out and go down the drain in the shower every morning she decided to shave it.
With her wrap on
She sent the pictures yesterday. I had NO idea that she had shaved her head. I knew it was going to happen but still I took a deep breath as I scrolled down to view the pictures. First was picture of her with her head wrap- how cute she looks!!! ;) That was followed by two pictures of her with her hair- and some spots that were balding or thinning. And the next pictures were of her trying on her wig- it's amazing how similar it is to her real hair!!! It shocked me. And last of all were the two pictures of her bald. I'm happy she sent them- really I am- I think it helps me deal with the reality of the situation- especially since I'm so far away and can't see her in person. I must admit that I teared up a bit when I saw those pictures- now she looks like someone with cancer. Before she could go about her day or at least I could go about my day knowing she had it but there's just something about seeing her without her hair that took a bit to accept. I know it will grow back- and in fact- they say that hair after chemo is usually better than when you started! My mother said she felt okay with losing her hair- "I knew it was going to happen and
I'm okay with that," She stated on Skype last night. With her wig
Hair or no hair- I love my mother the same- she looks beautiful regardless! After all it's not about outside beauty- my mother is the most beautiful person I know- both on the outside but especially on the inside.....
No hair
On Wednesday of this week she goes to get her blood drawn to see if her levels are back up and good enough to administer another round of chemo on Thursday. My mother said she's feeling really well. My sister and her family had a great time visiting with her and cooking for her. What a blessing that my sister was able to visit- I know that it was a blessing not only to my mother but to my sister as well!
I've been doing a devotional at night with my kids before bed. I shouldn't be but some how I am continually amazed with the verses that I find at the end. They seem to speak to me and where I am....that is where this verse came from.
Psalm 20:7
"Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God."
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